I barely slept last night in anticipation of this game tonight. I have this odd confidence that I never have as a sports fan and it's disconcerting. The fact that two teams that finished 1 game apart and were the 2nd and 3rd best teams in baseball this year are playing for survival is maddening. That' said only a few years ago the Cubs would already be at home. Still the thought that a loss tonight means a massive disappointment was not something I was prepared for in 2015. I was all about this being one year early, rookies don't win, blah, blah, blah. All of that shielded me from this awful, terrible, wonderful feeling of anticipation and the one thing most foreign to me as a sports fan and particularly as a Cubs fan...hope. Yeah, that's all over with now. Not only do I hope they win, I think they'll win and that's the worst of all and yet, and yet IF they win I can dig into these playoffs and be ready come what may. Expectations will ebb and wane but I'll be ok from a Cubs fan mentality point of view. Ok, now bring on Gerrit Cole Bring on Jake Arrieta, let's get this done. Go Cubs!